I Hate

Even when faced with death I have never felt such pain.
A family who finds me a burden and no friends with whom to complain
Ejected, detested, dejected, rejected.
There is no cure for a pain in the heart.

Only time can save my lack of light
I hate the day and detest the night.
Babied adulthood brings me to tears
I've learnt nothing from all of my years.

A fractured society based on a lie
I can't do this. I don't want to.
Nothing about living seems worth it.
Death ends pain. Death ends pleasure.

Death ends all things, but is it worth it.
Sometimes I think so. The ease of death is one thing to be fond of.
No racing no working no hurting.
Just nothing, a purgatory of states.

If there were a place I could go where I would be welcome to die,
I would go.
Living in a home that has no love for me kills me each day.
Kills it. Kills my ambition, once I had some, now there is none.
Why? OH why did I lose it?

The cold reality of living was the downfall.
A college dropout with nowhere to go.

Daisy

Friends again
-Yawn-
I long
For far more meaningful descriptions

I thought maybe you were like no other
But now I see
I See
Maybe that was your cover

Are you hiding?
Do you fear your feelings?
Have you had bad dealings?
Maybe your emotions for me ceased?

No matter, I'll survive
This isn't the first time
My head's been turned
By a Daisy with lime

I hope you'd say something
If it was my fault
Maybe I'M overcritical
Well, that's like wound and salt

Now the cold shoulder?
Never have you been cold to me
Maybe you're unwell?
Perhaps your right state would disagree

I hope I did nothing to offend you
Please forgive me if I did
I didn't mean to spring anything upon you
Alright, time to screw on my lid.

Earth and Stone

Another swig and the bottle's gone
I'll be safe away
Away from cold reality,
Illusion's where I'll stay.

Another swig and the bottle's gone
My strings have lost their play
I'll be awake another night
To waste another day.

A broken E counts another month
That I've been all alone
With silence to accompany me
And only my heart to loan.

A broken E counts another month
I tune to find the tone
That will match the state of my simple life
Living on earth and stone.

I sit and play for anything
I've got nothing to lose
Only the clothes upon my back,
My guitar, my blue suede shoes.

I sit and play for anything
Planning my next ruse
To get a little extra dough
So I can buy more booze.

Night is back and I shiver alone
No one to share the pain
My mind races back and forth
Suffocating my brain.

Night is back and I shiver alone
Humming Penny Lane
Just to distract me from misery
Slowly driving me insane.

I reminisce of times with you
I shed another tear
Once we sat hand in hand,
Defiant of a doubtful seer.

I reminisce of times with you
But I was wrong to leer
Our fortune-teller never lied
I still love you, dear.

fear

You curl up again in the corner
You keep your eyes closed because you fear what you do not know.
You fear the thought of feeling something worse than what's running through your mind
But the unknown is so much larger and impressive than you could have ever thought.

If only you could see
But you keep your eyes closed
You keep your thoughts to yourself
You're locked up and only you have the key.

You consider the thought of being hurt
You quiver in pain
You consider the thought of affection
But without opening up, you can't feel a thing.

You end up tearing at your heart
You lie and breathe rapidly because of the pain you fear to let in
But in doing so, you've given rise to the real pain
The pain that arises from fear...